I once thought my marriage was a failure, and that I could never again trust my husband to remain faithful to me. For years, I had believed my husband’s primary goal should be to please me. Now, with some years of S-Anon recovery behind me, I pray that my husband works to please his Higher Power.
While my husband is sexually sober today, the reality is he is still a sexaholic and he could choose his sexaholism over recovery. That used to cause me a lot of fear, but S-Anon has shown me that I don’t have to be fearful as long as I place my trust in my Higher Power rather than my husband. My experience has shown me that I can trust God to give me what I need to face each day with serenity, courage, and wisdom.
God stands at the door and waits for me. If I am willing to ask for help, He will give it perfectly. I don’t need to check up on God or evaluate His plan. I simply trust in God’s wisdom, and I experience the serenity that comes from His love.
Reprinted from S-Anon’s Reflections of Hope, page 225.