Fear of Intimacy

I have been afraid to communicate with my spouse, especially regarding difficult subjects. I tend to avoid saying anything, or I tell little white lies because sometimes I feel afraid to tell the truth. But recently when my husband said he felt that I was distant sexually, I was able to work through the fear and admit that he was right. That was a lot of growth for me. It was so hard to admit my part, because I would rather live in denial and believe in the “magic fix,” rather than have to say how I feel. I, too, am afraid of intimacy, but our communication has grown by leaps and bounds as a result of both of us working our programs. I’m learning how to get over the fears that have held me back.

Reprinted from Working the S-Anon Program, 2nd Edition, page 62.