After being in S-Anon 18 months, I found out my spouse had been acting out the entire time he had been “in recovery.” I hit a new bottom, going through depression, panic attacks, grief, and loss of the sexual intimacy I thought we had been rebuilding. Deep down I knew that Step Three was still the answer. I turned the situation over to my Higher Power, and with God’s help I worked through my difficult feelings.
I am thankful for this simple program and the knowledge that no matter how difficult the challenges are, Step Three works just the same. When I risked going through my fear and once again surrendered my life to my Higher Power, I found the serenity, peace and acceptance I so badly wanted to regain. I now know on a deeper level that the God of my understanding will always be there to strengthen me if I surrender my will and my life.
Reprinted from S-Anon Twelve Steps, pages 31-32.