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"I was desperate to talk to someone who
would understand." |
Once
I learned that S-Anon existed, I knew I
would attend, but my motives were mixed. Mostly I felt
that I "should" go, to be the loving wife that
could never be accused of not supporting her husband, an
addict. But part of me knew that I needed to talk in an
environment that allowed open discussion of a painful,
even embarrassing disease. The complexities of being
married to a sexaholic - a respected leader in the
community - were such that I was desperate to talk to
someone who would understand. Going to the first meeting
was hard. Only one other member was there, and at first
I was disappointed and felt some pressure that my first
meeting was to be a one-on-one conversation. But I was
able to tell her my story, and to hear hers, before a
few other people arrived quite late. Before the meeting,
I expected to meet horrible people who were married to
perverts. During that meeting, and those that have
followed in the time I've been working this program,
I've met some wonderfully honest and compassionate
people. I went at first because of my husband's
addiction. Now I go because of my own difficulties and
struggles. |
